The Dog Show

We took the girls to a dog show and Honey is not invited back.

We got there at the very end so we only got to see the Best of's. Honey was interested for about 10 minutes. And then Mimi took her on walks before she jumped into the dog ring.

Aww cute little Dandie Dinmont

Pumpkin's favorite dog was the Yorkie

Judging her favorites

This is the Frenchie breeder we plan on using once the hubs says he is ready for another one.

Respite

Saturday and Sunday I had a little bit of a melt down about our failed adoption. The hubs was out of town with his friends having a dude trip. I don't know what came over me. It's so silly. I only knew about this baby for a very short amount of time, but my heart completely fell in love with him. I hope that my guard isn't up for our next match. Anyway, I am just feeling sorry for myself, I will get over it. This is just a hard process. Adoption is hard.

Well anyway we did respite for a few days for this adorable baby girl a couple of days younger than Peanut. I am 100% convinced twins would be a blast and something I can totally handle. It is much more difficult when babies are 3 or more months apart.

Super creepy picture.

But really adorable babies behind the fuzz face

the aftermath

Last night Ms P called us to see how we were doing. Apologizing over and over again. I assured her we were ok and are so grateful we weren't waiting months for our baby. Yesterday was emotional exhausting. I was in shock, excited, elated, disbelief, awe, and then disappointed, sad, vulnerable. Truly a wave of emotions in a very short time span. I am so thankful that mom changed her mind before we met her. That would have made things so much worse. At the same time I am sad I didn't get to meet her. She really sounded wonderful. I would have loved to have her in my life. It all happens for a reason.

Ms P told me they have already shown our book twice (once picked). And reassured me that she doesn't believe we will have a long wait at all. She then said that since she said that we will probably have to wait a year. hahha

A wave

Today after dropping Honey off at school Pumpkin, Peanut and I went to the park. Pumpkin had to go potty and being winter the bathrooms were locked up. I made her go outside (we were the only one's there). Then the phone rings. I answer and it's our social worker. We were chosen. There was a 2 week old baby boy and the birth mother wanted to meet us today. I couldn't believe it. I started calling everyone immediately. I called my mom, my dad and my MIL. The hubs wasn't answering the phone. She was going to call me back when she had a minute to give me all of the information. She called me back and when I was on the phone the hubs kept calling me over and over again. He was 6.74 lbs when he was born. I got all the medical information. I was crying/ shaking. At this point another mom was there and her son was playing with Pumpkin. I was just listening in shock and taking notes. After we got off the phone I called more people. One of my brothers, my sister, my cousin, my fostering friend, another adoptive parent. About two hours later I get a call from Ms P and she said the birth mom changed her mind. A total wave of emotions within a 2 hour period. Ms P warned me that the grandparents were VERY against the adoption. So I knew this was a very real possibility. I was in shock that we were matched the day our homestudy was finished. I don't know if this was the first birth parent to see our book, but I am assuming it was. That gives me hope. I was so scared that we wouldn't come up with the funds in time. Hoping, praying our next match has a better outcome for us.

HOLY COW

So I emailed Ms P (the social worker with the private adoption agency) to see where the status is with our home study and she wrote:

"Almost, but we are showing your book! "

Do you see that! SHOWING OUR BOOK! I almost fainted. I knew it was coming, but it's happening now! Right now a stranger who is considering adoption is looking at my family and determining if this is the family she wants to raise her child. I mean, I think we are pretty fabulous and would chose us. My heart is going a mile a minute. Right now, my baby could be in someone's belly growing and thriving.

My girls are being looked at by someone and determining if they will be big sisters.

House and etc

Well, I am smitten. I really really hope we can get that house. We decided to rent out our house until after the adoption. But we don't want to put in an offer until we find a tenant.

We still haven't gotten word that our homestudy is complete. :/

There is the most adorable 4 year old on Adopt Us Kids. I am afraid to adopt out of birth order now that my girls are older. ... but she really is so cute. ??

I'm in love

We are in no form to be looking at houses, but I am. My husband sent this beauty to me and I fell... HARD!

Our plan was to start looking after the finalization of our next child.

On my check list: 4 bedrooms, at least 2 baths, on a cul-de-sac, and racially diverse

On my dream list: Hardwood floors, and wooded lot

This is it! It's on the side of town all of my family lives.

It is in a racially diverse neighborhood (A MUST for transracial families)

The school we would have to camp out to get them into is one of the best in the city (even more racially diverse than the school they currently are in, double plus)

And!! It's on an acre wooded lot!! AHHHHH

Not, the cutest from the outside, which is why I'm guessing it is still available.

Sunroom! Ah, gazebo, finished basement, I could go on and on. I am in LOVE!

Prayers would be appreciated! I hope we can buy this house and sell ours (that has to go hand in hand). And on google maps, we saw that the next door neighbors have a swimming pool! Hello!!!