Good bye's and hello's

Sweet Potato is officially gone. He will always be my first son and I will miss him like crazy. He was so beautiful and petite. He was loving and a ham. Hopefully, I will still maintain contact with his new family, but that is their decision. The girls are doing really well with it. I think having Cashew (Baby Boy 2) here has made a HUGE difference.

We don't really know how long Cashew will be with us, but it looks like he could stay, at least for now. He is the polar opposite of Sweet Potato when he was a baby. Cashew is calm, relaxed, a great eater, and all around wonderful. I have been wearing him non stop (even as I type). I did that with Sweet Potato as well. I want them to become familiar to my smell, my sound, and my heart. Most of all I want him to know that I will always be here for him.

Baby Boy 2

A funny thing happened yesterday. We got a call for a baby boy and much later in the day found out we were not matched with him. Then 10 minutes later we were called and said we were matched with a baby my agency didn't even know existed. It really is crazy how things work. He is so cute and looks exactly like one of the babies from one of the blogs I follow. I don't know what food I want to call him, so for now he is BB2. We only take legal risk placements (strong possibility of adoption), so please pray he becomes a permanent member of our family.

Referral... again

Another baby boy. Lets see what happens. Please pray they pick us.

On the verge

For the last few days I have been on the verge of a complete cry fest. There have been a few random tears, but no real breakdown. Then, today, a Sufjan Stevens song came on the radio. When I heard the first cord I started crying and I couldn't stop. I had Pumpkin and Sweet Potato in the car, so I didn't/ couldn't cry out loud. It was a silent cry and I would smile and then bite my lip in case she was looking at me in the rear view mirror. I'm sure this will be nothing compared to what's about to come. I have been completely nauseous and just been totally depressed. For some reason I thought I was going to do ok with this transition. I was totally wrong.

No news

So I am assuming that means we weren't matched with him. :( This process stinks.

Uncle's Birthday

We just celebrated my brother's birthday. I love my family and they seriously crack me up. My youngest sister wasn't there, but we had a blast.

The newlyweds
My favorite lady <3
Everyone ate the mussels. Even Pumpkin.


Do you see that line of drool. That's what happens when they don't get sugar all the time. hahah


Dangerously close to the cake. I pulled her back after the picture.
Sometimes you have to improvise and cut the cake with a cookie.
Our city had a big music festival going on this weekend, so we had to stop and dance even though it was WAY past their bedtime.

Referral

We just got a call for a brand new baby boy! Please pray the county picks us. We should know more by Monday.

When the boys are away the girls will play

What do we do when Sweet Potato is away?

Naturally, we get into his walker.



I must apologize for always having a messy house. I would like to say that it's only a coincidence that whenever I take a picture there is a mess, but that's not true. It's always a mess.

Interracial families

The countdown to Sweet Potato's time with us has begun. We are doing pretty well with it, so far. The hubs and I keep talking about our next step. We want to adopt. But don't know from where. We want to use a surrogate, but don't know how soon that will happen. I have been thinking about giving our agency 3 months to give us another foster to adopt child and if we aren't placed within that time we will reassess. But this is what I'm thinking. Our friend that offered to be our surrogate is still losing weight (to qualify) but I would still really love to adopt. I think we are going to go the domestic adoption route. When we were at the zoo I saw two different transracial families, so I stopped them (of course... I stop any family I think may be built through adoption/ fostering) and they both said they worked with the same local agency. I am going to call the agency soon to get more information. But a funny thing happened. When I was picking Honey up from school the other day, I saw one of the mothers from the zoo. I got her number so hopefully we will have a new friend soon.

My main concern with domestic adoption is that no one will pick us because we are overweight and already have 2 kids. We would be 100% open to anyone that chose us, but still. I feel like only pretty people with huge houses are chosen. If we got an interview I know they would choose us. I think the love we have for our girls is pretty undeniable, but it's just getting that interview. Not to mention the cost... oh the cost... why does this process cost so much?!

Well, here are the pictures from the zoo.

At this point my new friend joined us. This is her son K.

cha, cha, changes

(I was singing the title)

So... as you know, we lost our beloved Nigel and I was having a hard time with not being able to neuter Alby. So, plan B went into effect and my MIL took Alby home with her (she was/ is the one planning on showing him and doing all the extra stud stuff). So we went to the pound for round 2 of finding our perfect dog. I am so happy to say that we did.

His cage card said he is a "lab mix". On paper we will be saying that; as his mix is illegal in our parts.
Harold is SOOOO Happy to have him. He didn't really love the puppy and he is happy to have a snuggle buddy agian.
Honey feeding Stan.
He is the perfect blend of personalities with Harold and my first soulmate dog.
The few people that met him were a little intimidated of him at first, but quickly realized there is absolutely nothing to be intimidated about.
Now, if all goes well my MIL and breeder said we could have one of Alby's puppies and that got me very excited. (That won't be for 2-3 years) Then we would be back to my comfortable 3 dogs.

knocking

I hear a knocking on the window. When we pull back the curtains this is what we see...

Picture Pony v2

There are really no words to describe the adorableness of these pictures.