A wave

Today after dropping Honey off at school Pumpkin, Peanut and I went to the park. Pumpkin had to go potty and being winter the bathrooms were locked up. I made her go outside (we were the only one's there). Then the phone rings. I answer and it's our social worker. We were chosen. There was a 2 week old baby boy and the birth mother wanted to meet us today. I couldn't believe it. I started calling everyone immediately. I called my mom, my dad and my MIL. The hubs wasn't answering the phone. She was going to call me back when she had a minute to give me all of the information. She called me back and when I was on the phone the hubs kept calling me over and over again. He was 6.74 lbs when he was born. I got all the medical information. I was crying/ shaking. At this point another mom was there and her son was playing with Pumpkin. I was just listening in shock and taking notes. After we got off the phone I called more people. One of my brothers, my sister, my cousin, my fostering friend, another adoptive parent. About two hours later I get a call from Ms P and she said the birth mom changed her mind. A total wave of emotions within a 2 hour period. Ms P warned me that the grandparents were VERY against the adoption. So I knew this was a very real possibility. I was in shock that we were matched the day our homestudy was finished. I don't know if this was the first birth parent to see our book, but I am assuming it was. That gives me hope. I was so scared that we wouldn't come up with the funds in time. Hoping, praying our next match has a better outcome for us.