At the agency

Today I went to drop off the ultrasound pictures of the baby boy, to give back to his mom. I was really anxious about walking in there. I don't know why.  I'm doing a lot better, but I still get super sad when I see a baby boy.  I have no idea when or how our baby will come to us, and it's frustrating.  Ms P said they are showing our book to a birth mom later this week.  I usually don't know when they show our book until we are picked, and I prefer it that way.  This will be the first person that will look at it since we were matched the last time. She also suggested we get on the website. I have been dragging my feet with this.  It's unnatural to talk about yourself, and I just don't know what to say.  As you can tell I don't really have a way with words.  It will be especially awkward because there won't be pictures to go along with what I'm saying.  BLAH. That's how I feel right about now.