Saturday, July 21, 2012

Come on over

Today, the bparents are coming to our house for the first time.  I am so nervous! Our house is small, hence why we have/ had (coming off soon) it on the market.  I know I am a great mom.  I am totally the mom I want to be but I hope she values the mom I am.  I hope she isn't sad that I am Bear's mom, I hope she is happy with the choice they made.  I hope my girls don't say anything embarrassing. I hope they don't throw any fits. I want them to be on their best behavior tomorrow.   I know, that's impossible.  I hope they see that we are so in love with our son and we will do everything in our power to give him everything he needs.  While I haven't experienced the loss of a birth child (besides my miscarriage) I have experienced the loss of a son.  I miss Sweet Potato every day and I will for the rest of my life.  I hope God keeps him safe and under his wing.  He will always be my son but I know I am not his mom.  As much as that crushes me I am so happy that God brought us on the path He did.  I am so happy that Bear is our son.  Every time I see his full name written out it shocks me.   I smile and it brings a tear to my eye.  I can't believe our son is here.  The name we have been wanting to use for the last 4 years is fulfilled.  Two amazing little girls and one stellar little man.  I pray for the birth parents that they have peace with the most selfless choice they could possibly make.  Giving us the most amazing miracle.

 I might post pictures, but I won't show you their faces.  Pray they love our house.


*********Update** I LOVE THEM! I knew this already, but as soon as they came in I was totally at ease and they really are the best.  I am so happy God chose him to be our son and give us the most amazing birth parents of all time. *********

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