Here we go... Again

I just got off the phone with our adoption worker.  She told me we were chosen...but so was another family.  The bparents wanted to meet both families before making their decision.   Our agency really tried to deter them of this asking if they wanted to meet the family they liked more, first.  They didn't want to do that.  They wanted us both.  So here we go, again.   I am not excited.  I hate saying that.  This time around I am very cautious and I hate being like that.  I obviously wear my heart on my sleeve and I hate being guarded.  My mentality is definitely, It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. So I really do wish I could pump myself up.  They are aware of Petunia, so they know there is a chance we will be able to adopt her, and we will if blessed to do so.

Prayers that the bparents make the best decision for them and for their baby.

Here we go...again.