THE Meeting

I don't think I will be able to express how I was feeling yesterday.  I was insanely nervous. I was shaking.  I was a disaster. We got to the agency about 30 minutes early.  We sat in the car for about 10 minutes and then walked in. We asked the social worker more questions. And then we saw them get out of the car. My  mind was going crazy. Will they like me? Will they think I'm annoying? Will they find me suitable to raise their child?

They walked in and b mom hugged me. I think I said out loud, "Oh good!" ahhaha  B dad shook my hand. Both shook The hubs.  It was little bit awkward at first. They know so much about us, but we know nothing about them.  At the same time, this meeting was about getting to know us, not the other way around so I wanted them to ask any questions they had.  Right off the bat they asked if we wanted to know what we are having.  The plan was to hand us an envelope at the end of the meeting. But Bdad already found out, which was the whole reason she was giving us the envelope.  I told her that the idea of the envelope was the sweetest idea and I told all my friends and family about it.  We opened it there and the ultrasound pictures were in there and I knew right away it was a boy. I started crying immediately.  The card should have given it away. It was blue and green, but it didn't.   They were so relieved that we were excited.  They thought we wanted a girl.

We talked about how both she and I thought she was having a girl.  The social worker said we should tell them the story of how we came to adopt. The Hubs stepped up and told them.  She started freaking out about my story. We assured her what happened to me was a 1 in a million chance.  She told me that she and Bdad looked at profiles independently and both chose us without having a discussion first. I loved that.  I love that they were both called to our book.  Like I said they were really excited because our personalities fit theirs and that was the #1 reason they picked us. They were also really excited that we had Honey.  I was really nervous to ask, but knew I had to get it out of the way. I told them we would really prefer not to circumcise.  I was afraid of their reaction. They were amazing. Without hesitation they both said that was no problem. They said he, our son, would appreciate that. ahha Bmom talked about how excited she was to give us this gift. And she knows she had him to be our son.  That was a HUGE relief. I mean, how amazing is she.  I love them both so much.  They asked if the girls knew. I told her we didn't tell them because we didn't want to have to explain that the baby wasn't coming anymore if they changed their mind.  They both said, tell them.  In their mind they are 100% set on adoption.  I only have 3% hesitation that they could change their mind after the birth.  After talking about that I asked if they would mind if I was in the delivery room. Again, without hesitation, they both said absolutely.  If she has to have a c-section only one person is allowed in. So that is to be determined.

I can't stress enough how much I love them.  Everything just clicked. I asked them what their favorites are. And what their childhood was like.  Different things. We kept asking if they had any questions for us, and for the most part they didn't. They told us that they were really happy we had dogs.

We will be planning another meeting where she can meet the girls. Ms P brought that up and we are all really excited to see each other again.  Maybe our son will be kicking then.