Debating on whether to share this or not. Like I've said before the reason for this blog is so anyone considering fostering or adoption can see what we went through, and I can go back and remember our journey.
Anyway, yesterday was the first day I got the impression bmom could change her mind and decide to parent. They have always been so on board with adoption, but I think being stuck in the hospital is really getting to her. She has nothing to do except think of the baby. She is still calling him by the name we chose and still thinking she wants to place him. I'm just getting a different vibe. This is torture. It's not that bmom and bdad are unable to parent. They would do a great job. I just hate being stuck in limbo. I have fallen in love with our unborn son and the bparents. I just wish I knew. I will be devastated if we aren't placed with the baby and I said no to the twins. If we weren't matched I would have definitely said yes to the boys. I know it all happens for a reason. I just want her to have him so we know what she decides. I am giving her space and I won't text or visit her unless she specifically asks me to.
Prayers, as always, would be much appreciated.
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