Big news

In case you haven't noticed my best posts are the ones without pictures. haha

So, we decided to not go ahead with our friend being our surrogate. There were a few things that brought us to this decision.

#1 We have no urge to have another biological child

#2 The price was more than expected since we would have to pay for the worst health insurance ever

#3 if she delivered before the 9th month we would have to pay 100% of the medical costs.

#4 Our friend just experienced the loss of her twins, and I do not want that to happen

#5 Even partially paying for the surrogate charges (ie we payed for ivf a few times and it didn't take) would have ruled out adoption and we didn't want to head down that route

#6 Our appointment with the Dr's was cancelled because the dr needed the day off (I think that's fate)

#7 Best of all we are REALLY excited about adoption

So what does this mean? We will keep Peanut here until she goes home to family. We will keep our foster license open and up to date in case Honey's potential siblings become available, or if Sweet Potato comes back into care. I will tell our agency not to call me with referrals unless there is a 95% chance the child will lead toward adoption.

We submitted our application to a local private agency late night. This agency is really small and doesn't do many adoptions a year, but I love that they are small. I didn't like any of the other agencies in town

(**Side note- Our foster agency just called me with a referral for a 2 year old boy and I said NO! I NEVER say no. I am big into signs, which I know is crazy, but I hope that wasn't a sign that I should continue with fostering??)

I am really afraid that nobody will pick us because we have 2 beautiful little girls. When I was in high school I would read waiting family adds in a local paper. (I know this is weird, I mean I was a virgin, by choice, all throughout high school. tmi? sorry.) . I think I always knew I wanted to adopt. But anyway, when I read those adds I couldn't believe the people that had one kid and were trying to adopt another. I always thought they seemed greedy. Forget 2 kids! Oh the irony. So please pray that a woman sees the love we have for our kids and will chose us. I know it's in God's timing, but I would really love for them to be close in age to my girls.