What to do

There is a sibling set available on our county website. I really want to call on them. My husband doesn't want to take in two right now. It's weird. I would LOVE another baby. But I would also LOVE to be done with all of this and have a complete family. I don't like that I would be taking things into my own hands. I feel like the call should just come and God plans it just the way it's supposed to be. But I guess it would still work the way it's supposed to. We have little time left with our sweet potato and it is hard. I am glad we had him for the time we did. And I would do it all over again just to have had him in our lives. But the anxiety I feel of waiting for a call. If I am in an area that has poor reception I get nervous that I'm missing "the call". I lose my phone a lot and hope I will find it in time before it stops ringing. If I'm in the shower the phone is right next to me on the floor. In our county if you miss a call, or stay on the phone too long with the social worker, that could be all the difference between getting a child and not. You can't go into detail about their lives, if it's even available. It's a flawed process. I wish that the county wasn't privatized.