Tonight was the ET fundraiser. M and her girls were there and so sweet. R was showing off her pretty dress and E was beautiful and happy. All of the kids there were gorgeous (of course). My social anxiety kicked in and I didn't talk to many families. We talked to 2 people but they were so occupied with their children they didn't have a chance to talk long. I bought a beautiful ET scarf. I wanted to take pictures, but just felt awkward. My M, per usual didn't talk at all.
So here is where I am having some questions. I/ we want to adopt. That's not the question. The question is if now is the best time. Really the hold up is the cost of adopting. We don't know where we are going to get this money. We have been talking about doing IVF and having a surrogate carry our baby. This option would be a lot cheaper if we found a friend to carry our baby. My heart is torn. I want to adopt. But I just don't see how that is going to happen. My whole body is consumed with the Ethiopian culture. But what it really boils down to is that we want another baby ASAP. Who knows what will happen, but we are keeping our hearts and minds open to either option.
I'm sorry for the lack of pictures. I know pictures make blogs more fun to read. But our computer doesn't have any memory on it. hahah I have some cute ones too. E kissed her first boy this week and we took her sled riding. :) Just imagine how adorable that was!
First, great to see you tonight, and I wish we would have been able to talk some more.
ReplyDeleteSecond, I have some thoughts on your questions, but I'm going to give you my 2 cents tomorrow via email when I'm not so tired. (We just got home about an hour ago, and E just now went to bed!)
The cost held us up too. Finally we just knew and trusted that God was calling us to adoption. I can't even explain all the ways that God has provided the finances because honestly I don't even know. But somehow, we have all the money we need.
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