I knew this was coming, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. Peanut is leaving us on Friday.
This picture was just after she came to us. Only a few days old and super duper tiny. She has truly blossomed. She laughs all the time and is one of the happiest babies I have ever met. I am so happy to have had her the time we have and I would go through all the heartache all over again to have her.
I really wish my heart was in a better place to continue fostering. I really think it is something we will do after our next one. This time having the intent to foster and not adopt. Of course, open to adoption, but not the sole reason we are doing it. Right now I need a break. My heart needs a break. Hopefully when/ if we get back into it our state will get it's sh*t together and fix the system. Hopefully birth parents won't get chance after chance to fail. All the while leaving their children in limbo.
Peanut, you are so beautiful and we are going to miss you like crazy, especially Honey. You two have this unbelievable bond. I have never seen anything like it. You two lock eyes and giggle non stop. But we all love you. You were my daughter from the time you were born until you were 5 1/2 months old. In my heart you will always belong to me.
This is so sad. I'm so sorry you have to go through this again. I hope she is going to a home where she is loved as much as she is in your home <3
ReplyDeleteUgh! Praying for you, my friend, and your family. I hate this. I'm trusting God will take all this pain and heartache and turn it into something beautiful. You are a strong woman. You've probably seen me say it on my blog but another blog friend said it to me and I clung to it the day we said goodbye to Ladybug (after just 5 weeks…and I thought that was torture!)… "Love is never wasted." The foundation of love you gave Peanut will be with her forever.
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