Wishing and waiting

We are still waiting on progress from bmom. She's still on hospital rest, but unless anything else comes up (ie fever, elevated blood pressure, drop in our son's heart rate) they will not induce. It can be a few hours from now or a few weeks from now. It's just a waiting game.  I feel awful for bmom and if there was a way I could take her place I would. We both want this part of things to be over. I can't imagine all of the thoughts going through her mind. Although it's been wonderful to get to know them better. And, I got to feel our son kick!!!   That was amazing and I immediately started crying.   :/  Prayers for a quick uncomplicated delivery are much appreciated.

Uh oh

This little stinker was in time out for messing with her hair product 

And putting it on Harold

He didn't mind.  

Thank goodness it was the cheap stuff. hahahahah

Not really an update

Nothing has really changed since my last post. We are still waiting minute to minute, day to day. I know being stuck in the hospital is making it really hard on bmom. We are just asking for your prayers, that he comes soon, like now, and that everything goes smoothly.

Coming soon

I was going to our agency to drop off some money when I got a call from Ms P. I let her know I was on my way in, so she just said she would talk to me when I got there. When I got there she told me to sit down, which is never good. She said Bmom's water broke. I started screaming with excitement and fear. She said she would let me know if I should come down to the hospital.  My amazing MIL left work and came over to watch the girls. It was a late day for The Hubs and luckily he hadn't left for work. As soon as my MIL walked in we were out to go to the hospital.  It was very uneventful.  I feel awful for Bmom. She is now unable to leave the hospital until she gives birth. We were told it could be today of a week from today. We are praying that he doesn't come until at least Sunday.  I am the Matron of Honor in my best friend's wedding and The Hubs is a groomsman.  It would really really suck if we couldn't go. Obviously whenever he wants to come is when he will come.   Honey also gave the idea to name him Easter Egg! I don't think we will use that, so it's up for grabs. I can't believe this is all happening so fast! MUCH sooner than we thought it would. 

I can't say how much I love the birth parents.  Bmom texted me and told me how happy she and Bdad are that they found us.  Isn't that amazing!  I wish I could stay at the hospital with them. I know they need space right now and are going through a lot of emotions.  I can't even begin to understand what they are feeling. They are really excited for the relationship we will have. 

So, darling son, please wait until Sunday. Or at least Saturday after 10pm.  I love you and can't wait to hold you in my arms. We will see you soon. I love you. 

THE Meeting

I don't think I will be able to express how I was feeling yesterday.  I was insanely nervous. I was shaking.  I was a disaster. We got to the agency about 30 minutes early.  We sat in the car for about 10 minutes and then walked in. We asked the social worker more questions. And then we saw them get out of the car. My  mind was going crazy. Will they like me? Will they think I'm annoying? Will they find me suitable to raise their child?

They walked in and b mom hugged me. I think I said out loud, "Oh good!" ahhaha  B dad shook my hand. Both shook The hubs.  It was little bit awkward at first. They know so much about us, but we know nothing about them.  At the same time, this meeting was about getting to know us, not the other way around so I wanted them to ask any questions they had.  Right off the bat they asked if we wanted to know what we are having.  The plan was to hand us an envelope at the end of the meeting. But Bdad already found out, which was the whole reason she was giving us the envelope.  I told her that the idea of the envelope was the sweetest idea and I told all my friends and family about it.  We opened it there and the ultrasound pictures were in there and I knew right away it was a boy. I started crying immediately.  The card should have given it away. It was blue and green, but it didn't.   They were so relieved that we were excited.  They thought we wanted a girl.

We talked about how both she and I thought she was having a girl.  The social worker said we should tell them the story of how we came to adopt. The Hubs stepped up and told them.  She started freaking out about my story. We assured her what happened to me was a 1 in a million chance.  She told me that she and Bdad looked at profiles independently and both chose us without having a discussion first. I loved that.  I love that they were both called to our book.  Like I said they were really excited because our personalities fit theirs and that was the #1 reason they picked us. They were also really excited that we had Honey.  I was really nervous to ask, but knew I had to get it out of the way. I told them we would really prefer not to circumcise.  I was afraid of their reaction. They were amazing. Without hesitation they both said that was no problem. They said he, our son, would appreciate that. ahha Bmom talked about how excited she was to give us this gift. And she knows she had him to be our son.  That was a HUGE relief. I mean, how amazing is she.  I love them both so much.  They asked if the girls knew. I told her we didn't tell them because we didn't want to have to explain that the baby wasn't coming anymore if they changed their mind.  They both said, tell them.  In their mind they are 100% set on adoption.  I only have 3% hesitation that they could change their mind after the birth.  After talking about that I asked if they would mind if I was in the delivery room. Again, without hesitation, they both said absolutely.  If she has to have a c-section only one person is allowed in. So that is to be determined.

I can't stress enough how much I love them.  Everything just clicked. I asked them what their favorites are. And what their childhood was like.  Different things. We kept asking if they had any questions for us, and for the most part they didn't. They told us that they were really happy we had dogs.

We will be planning another meeting where she can meet the girls. Ms P brought that up and we are all really excited to see each other again.  Maybe our son will be kicking then.

SO HAPPY

He's a BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! More tomorrow

Happy Easter

I can't get the pictures from the morning off of my one memory card. That always happens to me when I put too much on the card. But at least I have these. 

Eyelets for the ladies 

 

After church we went to my mom and dad's for an Easter egg hunt.  Since they are the only grandkids everyone was really into it. It was a blast. 

Pumpkin was doing an AMAZING job finding the eggs.  

My brothers, for some reason, hid the eggs thinking the girls are more advanced than they are. 

Missing my oldest brother.

Obviously they are in their Sunday best. 

They love putting all of that money in their piggy banks. 

Pumpkin found both Golden eggs. Without hesitation, she gave the first one to Honey.

My mom said, "It was THE BEST Easter I've ever had!" 

That was so wonderful to hear. We really did have a great day and never losing sight of why we celebrate.