Pulling at strings

Fostering? Maybe this is where we are supposed to go? I am very hesitant about this. I don't know if I could handle the hurt. But maybe we would be lucky, and we could build our family this way. I know that we are supposed to have more children. I know that there was a reason I went through what I went through. Hamilton County is changing how they are operating. Instead of going through the state, the state is going through multiple private agencies. I called an agency today. The woman I talked to was awesome! She was honest about the hurt but was very encouraging. I will talk about it with M tonight. It's a lot of work, different kind of work instead of getting papers together for a dossier (which still seems a lot harder than this). It's every Saturday being consumed with classes for 2 months. I am still open to adopting from Ethiopia. I am going to try and plan another garage sale. I really want to walk down that cobble stone road to the red door (I know they moved, but I'm talking about the excitement of seeing your baby for the first time). I am still open to IVF (if we found a surrogate). So, I guess what I'm saying is that I am open.